Heavy Heart

My heart is heavy this morning as I write this. Yesterday, two people from my community lost their lives. It seems I have been reminded daily that life is so short. Knowing first hand what it is like to lose a sibling, I am hurting so much for the family. I wish I could help take some of their pain away, it is a pain that no one should have to endure so young.

I believe that God has a plan and a reason for everything but things like this, really test my faith. Yesterday, he took a brother, son, boyfriend, cousin, and friend away from the community. He took a mother, sister, daughter, and a friend away also.
Living in a small community, things like this really hit home and bring the light to your eyes. I don't understand why this is happening, I may never understand but it just makes me that much more thankful that I am still here today.

I am thankful that although my family doesn't understand my future move, they have stood by me anyways.

I am thankful that I attended a small school where I got to know everyone and made a lot of memories. Three of my classmates have been in serious accidents lately and I am glad I would be able to tell you certain things about each one instead of just "I knew them."

Please excuse my midnight editing...

Nate was my locker neighbor throughout school. We were never that close of friends but we always said "Hi" to each other or he would make some smart ass remark to me.
He was always cracking a smile and trying to make people laugh.
He was a ladies man. He always had a girlfriend or was trying to impress one.

He had recently been involved in doing and selling drugs but he was clean for the last few months. He had found God and turned himself around. It took courage for him to face all the people who doubted him, who were just waiting for him to mess up, and prove himself to them.

He fell asleep and never woke up at the young age of 22. I hope he rests in peace and comforts his family from up above. <3

I am thankful that I have friends who also stand by me through my ridiculousness. I do not have many close friends but I am SO thankful for the ones that I do have.

I may be confused with God right now and his plan but I am thankful for all the things he has helped me with in life so far..



One of my favorite quotes, " Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal." -Unknown.

Hold your loved ones tight and please say a prayer for all the families who are hurting everywhere right now. <3 <3



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